Friday, May 27, 2011
Unfortunately the Olympic Games that I was targeting was the 1980 Moscow Games and due to political upheaval, the USA decided to boycott these games, so Canada followed right along. Devastation…my dream was gone!
I am sure that there are some people who must think I am absolutely nuts! But I believe that you should pursue your dreams at full throttle, you can’t worry about what people think. With determination and the right attitude you can achieve your goals. Michelangelo once said “The greatest danger for most of us is not that we aim to high and we miss it, but we aim to low and reach it.”
Saturday, May 14, 2011
The other day I was at Latrobe University speaking with Physiotherapy students. We were discussing communication between patients and clinicians and how to get patients motivated. One of them asked me a question…”Why is it that you are so motivated?”
This question got me thinking and I had a really hard look at myself. At first I didn’t know the answer but the more I thought about it the more I realized that I am motivated by fear. Yes Fear!
But what is it that I am afraid of? There are a couple of different things, the fear of not doing something to the best of my ability and the fear of my MS getting worse.
Fear is a primitive emotion and it causes us to obsess over even the littlest things. I know that no one is perfect, but if I am going to do something then I want to do it to the best of my ability. I am motivated not by ruthless determination to the tasks I undertake, but by the fear that I will fail at them.
Then of course there is Multiple Sclerosis. I think that the worst thing about having MS is the unpredictability of the disease. It creates a world of never-ending uncertainty. I think that subconsciously I push myself to my limits because of the fear of not being able to do the things that I do, in the future. I want to be able to accomplish my goals before I’m not able to. I am not saying that my MS will get worse, no one can tell me that, but it is the fear of the unknown and what can happen.
So is it bad to have fear to keep me motivated? I really can’t answer that question right now. Maybe I need to realize that by continuing to strive to my best potential that I am actually overcoming that fear. I don’t want to believe that all my motivation is driven by fear and maybe I am slowly overcoming this.
Nelson Mandela once said “I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear."
One day maybe I will be able to say that my motivation comes from the conquering of that fear. But until then I will continue to do what I do because of it.
So what motivates you?